For me and you.. :D

LOL!!

Collect ChrisChai Stickers from now with every single purchase of RM80. 

Sing your voice out.

So into Hokkien song recently. :)

Today's lunch and dinner will be..

Plain rice and SiChuan Bean Curd with chili and sesame oil.

Bought the bean curd yesterday in the Summit chinese medical shop. (RM2.40 for each bottle)
Haha.. I can think of saving a lot of money if I were consume this small bottle for maybe 3-4weeks..
That's what most of the China people do. In order to save money and not feeling hungry, they actually eat a small piece of bean curd with a big bowl of rice.
If not mistaken, I ate this bean curd when I was in Primary 5. I said that it was too spicy and salty, so I never wanted to taste it again.. Haha... and who knows, when I recalls back, I kinda miss the taste of the bean curd. And since I need to save money, why didn't I give myself a try again. That's what I really did yesterday. Omy and I bought the bean curd and we were kinda excited.. >.<
See, it's been such a long time I didn't taste it.. and when I tasted it just now, the aroma and the taste is still the same.. And I can tell you that it's so delicious. It also makes me reminisce back my old house where you can find one tiny bottle of SiChuan bean curd kept inside the refrigerator all the time.

My Love.

Daddy:

Thanks for banking in me money and also asking me if the amount of money is enough for me after using it for so many stuffs lately. I told you everything is alright but actually I'm not. I have a lot of things to tell you.. but I can't.. I don't want you to worry as you have so many other stuffs to do.. I try to be independent and I will be independent one day, I promise. :)

Mom:
You're always so optimistic. I wish to follow your footsteps. You taught me how to bear with all kind of situation. You teach me not to cry and handle things appropriately. Thanks for giving me moral support all this while. I will be stronger, I promise.

I LOVE YOU, DADDY AND MOMMY!!

Listen to my broken heart.

I listen to yours. But, I ain't wanna share my story with you. I don't know what's going on with me. But, one thing I'm sure of, I have others to listen to me. It's super uncomfortable to tell you what's in my mind. Who knows if you interpret it wrongly and I am the person you're going to give the hell next. I'm so sorry lah, if you think that I'm not caring enough.. or close with you lately.. Eh, why should I apologize? There's no need to feel bad right? Since you're the one who started it first. Yeah, an eye for an eye.. I fucking have to admit that I'm very ego sometimes. And I've never been a good person like what you see from the outside. Only God knows.

I'm feeling lucky.

To my dearest friends:
I'm happy and thankful to have found you guys in my darkest hour.
Things just mashed up suddenly. And I had been gone through minor depression and is about to becoming mad. I have keep reminding myself to move on and just don't stuck in the past. It seems that my tiny little brain rejected all what I'm going to do.Things that recently pop out have made me a little unsecure. I'm sure about many of my real friends know about it. But, at the end of the day, what can I do? Yell? Scream? Is that going to solve my problems. No, scars meant to be forever. And when you look at it, you will just pissed off and realized how ugly it is. Telling me you are sorry is just like you are making some kind of joke. Because it's so not true and why am I gonna believe in you? I'm good at faking a wide smile, and of course you didn't noticed that. You might think that I'm the first person to be blame, but please look at you, you're grown up and blessed with magnificent brain. Don't disgrace yourself with that. I'm younger, and I'm watching you. Don't you should potray a good characteristic? Teach me and guide me? But, your attitude had gone wild. I'm just finding ways to tolerate with you. I'm totally not commenting on your personal behavior like too emotional, sensitive.. Because, I also have my own bahavior that is due to genetic factor. No one to be blame. But, things that you should know and you learn from begin of your early childhood, you must apply on your daily life. I'm gonna stop writing as my mood swing a little. Who knows if I'm gonna break my keypad next.

Haha.. I'm feeling lucky when I know I have sweets when I'm feeling bitter. Sweets aka friends.. you guys are not just giving me good advice but also nice solutions. Sometimes, when I feel depressed or down.. you guys can sense that I'm not doing well. Words are not enough to describe my feelings right now. The feeling of appreciation and owning you guys so much.. just break my tears away. I want to say thank you to all of you whom care for me so much and willing to listen to my stories.. and I'm afraid that you guys feel bored or frustrated sometimes when I can't really cope up with some situations and I always keep to myself until you guys found something is not normal. And about the latest problem that arise, I will try my best to solve it. Thank you once again.