My Love.

Daddy:

Thanks for banking in me money and also asking me if the amount of money is enough for me after using it for so many stuffs lately. I told you everything is alright but actually I'm not. I have a lot of things to tell you.. but I can't.. I don't want you to worry as you have so many other stuffs to do.. I try to be independent and I will be independent one day, I promise. :)

Mom:
You're always so optimistic. I wish to follow your footsteps. You taught me how to bear with all kind of situation. You teach me not to cry and handle things appropriately. Thanks for giving me moral support all this while. I will be stronger, I promise.

I LOVE YOU, DADDY AND MOMMY!!

Listen to my broken heart.

I listen to yours. But, I ain't wanna share my story with you. I don't know what's going on with me. But, one thing I'm sure of, I have others to listen to me. It's super uncomfortable to tell you what's in my mind. Who knows if you interpret it wrongly and I am the person you're going to give the hell next. I'm so sorry lah, if you think that I'm not caring enough.. or close with you lately.. Eh, why should I apologize? There's no need to feel bad right? Since you're the one who started it first. Yeah, an eye for an eye.. I fucking have to admit that I'm very ego sometimes. And I've never been a good person like what you see from the outside. Only God knows.

I'm feeling lucky.

To my dearest friends:
I'm happy and thankful to have found you guys in my darkest hour.
Things just mashed up suddenly. And I had been gone through minor depression and is about to becoming mad. I have keep reminding myself to move on and just don't stuck in the past. It seems that my tiny little brain rejected all what I'm going to do.Things that recently pop out have made me a little unsecure. I'm sure about many of my real friends know about it. But, at the end of the day, what can I do? Yell? Scream? Is that going to solve my problems. No, scars meant to be forever. And when you look at it, you will just pissed off and realized how ugly it is. Telling me you are sorry is just like you are making some kind of joke. Because it's so not true and why am I gonna believe in you? I'm good at faking a wide smile, and of course you didn't noticed that. You might think that I'm the first person to be blame, but please look at you, you're grown up and blessed with magnificent brain. Don't disgrace yourself with that. I'm younger, and I'm watching you. Don't you should potray a good characteristic? Teach me and guide me? But, your attitude had gone wild. I'm just finding ways to tolerate with you. I'm totally not commenting on your personal behavior like too emotional, sensitive.. Because, I also have my own bahavior that is due to genetic factor. No one to be blame. But, things that you should know and you learn from begin of your early childhood, you must apply on your daily life. I'm gonna stop writing as my mood swing a little. Who knows if I'm gonna break my keypad next.

Haha.. I'm feeling lucky when I know I have sweets when I'm feeling bitter. Sweets aka friends.. you guys are not just giving me good advice but also nice solutions. Sometimes, when I feel depressed or down.. you guys can sense that I'm not doing well. Words are not enough to describe my feelings right now. The feeling of appreciation and owning you guys so much.. just break my tears away. I want to say thank you to all of you whom care for me so much and willing to listen to my stories.. and I'm afraid that you guys feel bored or frustrated sometimes when I can't really cope up with some situations and I always keep to myself until you guys found something is not normal. And about the latest problem that arise, I will try my best to solve it. Thank you once again.

My life well distracted.

Basically, I'm a cheerful and happy-go-lucky type of girl.
Recently, I'm not myself. Most of my friends noticed that. I'm going gloomy day by day, perhaps my face is covered with dark clouds and not sure about when is time to let the rain pours on my face.
Can be say that I'm having some problems with my XX. But, what can I tell her? Tell her the truth? Yesterday, she just asked me about something. And I said I'm quite agree with what she said and she should make some changes on things that she suppose to do. Then, she just like beh syiok. Walao eh, since you're thinking this way and I'm supporting you and telling you need to change, but in return you thought that I'm provoking you. Never mind, just to tell you that this is the last time I am gonna give you a strict warning. If you still think that this is not your fault then I will just shut my mouth up and care none of your business anymore. Peace!

(p/s: The person that I'm mentioning above has not know the extinction of this blog... but, if that person accidentally enter and see this post.. then, I hope you're to be proud of yourself for wasting my time to write about you.)

It's time to say "Jom Jimat!"

Not yet and don't want to declare bankrupt. Still have some money left in my bank account. (A serious small amount of money left... XD)
Money is always not enough. Temptations are everywhere. So, it's time to brainwash my mind and each time when I want to spend on something.. think twice or thrice.. and then buy. No more like buying things that later on that I may ended up trashing it into the bin.. now, I realized that it was a waste. Sorry, all this while I never felt so depressed over this situation. Maybe, as I'm growing up, I learned and finally realized that how difficult my parents earning every single cent.. God, I need you to guide me to the correct path.. where I can see the truth of myself and I am ready to correct my mistakes. No matter if it takes months or years, I willing to learn all good things and stay away from evils.

Happy Day Out With Awesome Friends Ever!

Suppose to post this on the Saturday, but after receive a message from Jiki Yew inviting me to go outing then I postpone my post until today.

22th of April:
On this marvellous day, Omy and I planned to eat at the Pizza Hut as to celebrate the Good Friday. Both of us are super duper excited over the 50% off for their delicacies. We're to choose between Creamy Carbonara and the Garlic Bread.. Wisely, we picked the Creamy Carbonara as our lunch that day. RM5.25 can be tagged as a suitable and economical price. (Hey, it's already 50% off.. what more can I ask for??!) And drinks.. our all-time-favourite, Pepsi.
Samantha and Grace informed us that they'll be joining us watching movie after our lunch. Probably will be around 3.30pm like that. So, we met each other in Square One. And awesomely bought our ticket and waited for the time to come.. (to enter the cinema..) Before that, we purchased our all-time-temptation, Cool Blog each.. and then we're ready for that movie! What movie we watched? The Chinese Ghost Story. It's another romantic and sad story.. later on, we proceed to the Origin's Restaurant. It's a western cuisine coffee house.. kind of. I'm not that hungry.. so decided to only order Tom Yam Soup and one plate of nuggets. Konon nak diet.. pui! While, Omy ordered baked potato and vegetable soup.. Samantha and Grace ordered Chicken Merryland. After the dinner, we took bus heading to BP Mall. We're like.. not enough of shopping and kaki gatal.. not really lah, just wanna buy snacks and some daily needs. And total, we spent about RM75. :(

Conclusion: Food is nice to eat, things is also nice to buy.. once you're satisfy.. you'll know how "nice" your money had spent.

23th of April:
Had been such a long time I didn't hang out with Sin Yi, Jiki, Michelle and Li Lian. Kinda miss those days.. oh well, they've finally call me out. And, not to disappoint them upon their request.. I kindly accepted their invitation. Although, my pocket had some earthquake in it.. still, I wanna have fun on that Saturday. So.. we went to Summit.. helped Sin Yi and Jiki to choose long pants as they want to wear it during the Malacca trip. Amazing, they're going to have a trip to Malacca. Hope they having fun and not to forget to buy me sourvenier. :)

Ah, I am so green in fashion.

Lastly, showing you the black and white eye shadows from elianto. Please don't get me wrong.. I'm not going to wear make up to class.. it's just for the drama purpose. Instead of making you look prettier.. I'm using this to make me uglier. Because I'm acting as a witch from the drama titled Macbeth. Just to hope that.. it works.. Now, I'm gonna end my post and back to my work. :)

Just for FUN.

Kay Elle Trip 1

So, we have made our trip to Kuala Lumpur last Saturday.
It's just so amazing spending most of the time shopping and chilling out with friends. Especially, when you knew that you're out of the campus and your mind automatically set a relax mode and you prefer not to think about assignments.
Berjaya Times Square, Sungei Wang and Pavillion were some shopping spots where we prefer to go.
I didn't shop much. Just bought 1 brown shorts and 1 F.O.S T-shirt. :)
And not to forget the night stalls in Bukit Bintang. Char Koey Tiao and Chicken Wings. They're the almost perfect combination for our supper that night. Thanks to Grace's boy friend for telling us the whereabouts of the good food.

Hong Kong Kim Gary Restaurant:

Kindori Ice Cream:

And now, I am waiting for the next trip to KL.

It's time to wish Anne a Happy Birthday!

Happy birthday to you.
Enjoy ya big day and may God bless you!
LOVE YOU!!

Language Camp Day 1

-Public Speaking Work is much easier as a timekeeper.
Many thanks to Pei Shan.. timekeeper partner, Akashah the MC and Naim as he's incharge in the quarantine section. And also, our honourable judges, Pin Ting, Kevin, Ikhwan and Vivian. You guys did a very good job.

-Jazz Chant Had no comment about this. But, still we enjoy this entire event. Just can't stop laughing when thinking back how the guys in our group dance during the Jazz Chant. Glad that they give their full cooperation during the practice.

-Preparation for tomorrow's Choral Speaking..  Faz, thanks for guiding us. And also our ex-conductor, Pei Shan for preparing us the script.

Saengil chukha hamnida, Jung Min Oppa!

Happy 25th birthday, Jung Min oppa!

















No idea.

That's what for my dinner yesterday. If my parents are reading this, I knew they're just got to kill me.
Haha, it's not gonna happen though..because they don't even know the existance of this pathetic blog. And I can just write about what I like and thoughts in my mind that I like to share. But, sorry to say that most of my story is just part of craps and provide you only a little information (perhaps nil) . Have you ever notice my facebook? Tell you what, mine one was dead. No new updates and posts. But, recently I'm kinda active in facebook because I just have the urge to post something about my favourite k-pop group- Big Bang (mostly, videos lah). But, still the question- Why is there no news and updates on my facebook?
The only reason is not to get my parents worry me. If my parents don't have facebook accounts, I will dare to pour out my feelings through the status. As I always see what my friends doing.
I would like to do so, but what if my parents see my status? If I'm going to write something negative (saja je), sometimes we can be very emo right? But, still I don't want to express it on facebook.. as you all know, it's too public. Haha.. so, to know what I am into recently.. just come to me personally.. and I prefer to express or share my stories with friends directly.. I mean face to face. I think this could be the best solution for me as a way to express my thoughts and feelings... and of course through blog too.

Message to a girl

Girl, you are drop dead gorgeous, I can say.
Sometimes, you are hilarious but sometimes you can be very strict. (seriously strict*) (It shows that Ying and Yang works this way.)
Girl, no matter what, you're still the best damn creation of the God.
Sometimes, girl, you don't have to blame yourself for anything or everything.
Just because you think that you are not good enough to contribute your love yet.
Be a fantabulous one, just live your life as how you like it to be.
Stop thinking about the past and keep up with the spirits of searching for happiness and fabulous life.

And, I would like to say, I love myself for being just an ordinary girl and I know you too. Cheers!!